I dunno how it all happened...two years ago, I was alone...well, kind of...I was drinking my fool head off, trying to stay above water mentally speaking. I was fucking some broad who was two years older than me, which is something to say given that I was 36 at the time. College professor, nice house, nice everything. And then I met her. The one. At least I thought so at the time. Boy, was I in for a rude awakening.

She turned out to be NOT the one, but for a whole 20 months I led myself to believe otherwise. I tried everything. I was the perfect boyfriend, or so I thought. I basically surrendered my being to be with this woman. Now I know that I sacrificed way too much, gave up the very core of my existence to be with her. And now I not only don't have her, I don't have anything left of myself. I'm disgusted with myself, with the world, with everything.

Maybe I'll get all that back. But in the meantime, I've made a fool of myself in the process. May God, if He exists, have mercy on my soul and my body. Somebody save me from myself.

12/26/2009 3:35:41 AM

blame it on the a-a-a-a-alcohol

12/26/2009 3:37:54 AM

third paragraph sounds like an Evanescence song

12/26/2009 3:39:20 AM

hit up the professor again, if it is possible.

don't lay out yourself like that here... some of these tww folks are foaming at the mouth hyenas.

may the Lord have mercy on you.

hope your life gets better.

good luck.

12/26/2009 4:05:01 AM

It's almost a new year... try church and report back.

12/26/2009 4:12:41 AM

I still love you, Dan

12/26/2009 6:43:28 AM

dont give up

12/26/2009 6:51:01 AM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L2BjJbKQkgc

And this, too, shall pass.

12/26/2009 6:55:11 AM

I was expecting a Yo Holmes at the end.

12/26/2009 7:50:48 AM

jesus dude pull it together

i don't know you from adam's house cat, but i'm in raleigh now. I need to deliver alcohol to you or something.

12/26/2009 9:12:33 AM

Quote :

"ADD TO MY TOPICS"

Quote :

"TROLL HARD LATER"

12/26/2009 9:18:44 AM

You just got a big lesson that you needed to learn. Sacrificing yourself for someone else isn't worth it. You have value. All education comes with a price. Doesn't mean your life is shit.

12/26/2009 9:29:04 AM

dude thinks will look up, i was in your position about 3 years ago so i know how you feel. after me and and my ex broke up i was in shambles and i couldnt see my life without her, now i 3 years later i dont see how i was with that bitch. i have met another girl and she is wonderful, and i love her with my heart. so trust me when i say everything will get better.

"when you see your shadow that just means the sun is shining on your back"

12/26/2009 9:33:11 AM

What couldnt she love!??!?!?

[Edited on December 26, 2009 at 9:41 AM. Reason : das]

12/26/2009 9:41:22 AM

btw, chit chat is not the place for this

12/26/2009 9:42:07 AM

good luck guy

12/26/2009 10:28:03 AM

Someone go give this dude a hug please.

12/26/2009 10:31:10 AM

Man up - stop crying like a 12 year old putting in her first tampon and take control of your life. You sound like a woman.

Or just go fuck evan, these attn whoring "gonna jump off a building at Christmas" are the lamest thing I ve ever read on TWW.

Why don;t you just become a cutter.

12/26/2009 10:34:00 AM

jesus, what is up with all this self-loathing crap on christmas

12/26/2009 10:38:58 AM

"Don't quit. Don't even quit."

12/26/2009 10:39:54 AM

Its just for attn and e hugs. It is very sad.

12/26/2009 10:40:10 AM

It will get better. Don't give up...

12/26/2009 10:40:58 AM

The lamest shit in the thread is all the "e-tuff" preying on the guy's weak moment.

12/26/2009 10:46:38 AM

The lamest shit in the thread is all the "e-tuff" preying on the guy's weak moment. that its another self loathing christmas blog on TWW

keep it in one thread guys

[Edited on December 26, 2009 at 10:54 AM. Reason : .]

12/26/2009 10:53:23 AM

the best way to get over someone is to get under someone else

12/26/2009 10:53:35 AM

12/26/2009 10:57:16 AM

Quote :

"You just got a big lesson that you needed to learn. Sacrificing yourself for someone else isn't worth it. You have value. All education comes with a price. Doesn't mean your life is shit."

That lesson should be learned in early 20's, not late 30's.

12/26/2009 11:15:15 AM

hang in there Dan! shout if you need anything.

12/26/2009 11:56:38 AM

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"The lamest shit in the thread is all the "e-tuff" preying on the guy's weak moment."

12/26/2009 12:00:26 PM

Yeah, maybe...but it is chit chat. It's not like the OP didn't know exactly what would happen.

12/26/2009 12:04:46 PM

Quote :

"the best way to get over someone is to get under someone else "

12/26/2009 12:12:15 PM

I'm sorry, man. Life seems to go in cycles...things will be good again someday.

12/26/2009 12:44:51 PM

and that's about all i got

12/26/2009 12:48:50 PM

Or it may not get better. But you better start learning how to be happy regardless b/c this life is all we got, brother.

12/26/2009 12:50:43 PM

hey bud, dont get down, turn that frown upside down.


Remember... FUCK BITCHES, GET MONEY

thats all you gotta do

12/26/2009 12:59:38 PM

you're 38 and posting on a college web forum about how sad your life is.


I would say you've pretty much hit rock bottom dude.


but the good news is when ur life is that shitty, there's nowhere else to go but up!

12/26/2009 1:23:16 PM

Wow. I posted that last night when I was tore out of the frame drunk. But it's all true. Methinks sober it would not have been posted. As my shrink said, my life has been a vicious cycle and I need to break it. I couldn't agree more.

Quote :

"That lesson should be learned in early 20's, not late 30's."

I totally agree. I'm a real late bloomer, and it truly sucks, but hey, at least when I'm 50 I'll feel 35 mentally. I wish to high heaven that I'd been able to learn a lot of these lessons a lot earlier in life. A lot of times I really hate not being on the same maturity level as my peers.

Thanks to all who have had kind words. It does help. For all that have not had kind words, at least thanks for taking the time and effort to post.

Oh, and I hate Evanescence.

[Edited on December 26, 2009 at 1:24 PM. Reason : I hate Evanescence.]

12/26/2009 1:23:35 PM

I'm glad you didn't off yourself last night.

I think that was a legitimate concern amongst the posters in this thread.

12/26/2009 1:25:57 PM

That's the one thing I would never do. I ain't afraid of dying, but I don't believe in taking your own life...that's true cowardice, no matter how bad things get.

And no offense to those who have tried or wanted to. There have been many times I thought about it...hard.

[Edited on December 26, 2009 at 1:28 PM. Reason : No offense!]

12/26/2009 1:27:01 PM

step one is to quit using this message board as life support

12/26/2009 1:48:03 PM

12/26/2009 2:13:02 PM

holy mother of fuck

12/26/2009 2:29:34 PM

Quote :

". As my shrink said..."

My fuck you are such a little girl.

12/26/2009 2:40:12 PM

http://nakedcumshots.com/movies_nats/smg/davina-and-jane-061009/videos/02.wmv

12/26/2009 3:05:41 PM

^thanks

12/26/2009 3:11:58 PM

hahaha, no problem

12/26/2009 3:12:18 PM

was she at least a milf?

no need being depressed over a dime a dozen 30something

12/26/2009 3:14:51 PM

Welcome to the club, dont think you are the only one having to deal with shit like this.

12/26/2009 4:17:27 PM

Don't end up not being able to accomodate anyone in your life at all, you would surely die alone if you do. Why did you help Joie? You care enough about people to be there for them.

12/26/2009 4:37:18 PM

set em up

12/26/2009 4:39:40 PM