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12/26/2009 4:40:01 PM

[Edited on December 26, 2009 at 4:44 PM. Reason : try again]

12/26/2009 4:41:27 PM

^ fail

12/26/2009 4:42:13 PM

how is it fail? is it X?

12/26/2009 4:42:47 PM

okay now it works. weird

[Edited on December 26, 2009 at 4:43 PM. Reason : . ]

12/26/2009 4:43:19 PM

Yeah, it's an X.

12/26/2009 4:43:40 PM

can you see me now?

12/26/2009 4:44:28 PM

<3

12/26/2009 4:51:29 PM

I...am in...a world...of SHIT

12/26/2009 4:51:38 PM

sorry bro.

Quote :

"third paragraph sounds like an Evanescence song"

12/26/2009 4:57:21 PM

So - did you man up? What did you do today to change your life?

12/26/2009 5:23:13 PM

I'm on my way to fuck you up!

Nah...wouldn't do that.

I'm working on all of it.

12/26/2009 5:33:33 PM

Man up - fucknuts.

12/26/2009 7:15:01 PM

got your ase master tech certification?

you could get that

12/26/2009 10:38:35 PM

for the most part that would just be a matter of taking the tests. i've got documented repair shop history, and I'm a geek otherwise, so everything falls into place somewhat. never did it because I never cared much.

High on the list this year is to get my pilot's license.

plenty of distractions (I have more hobbies/interests than God)...

12/26/2009 10:46:31 PM

Just follow the GRUMPY system:

Get drunk.
Really, really drunk.
Use this drunkenness to obliterate memories, or at least make them seem like they belong to someone else.
Masturbate more than seems socially acceptable.
Put the pussy down off its pedastal.
You are now healed

12/26/2009 10:47:10 PM

well, lately i got the first four steps down pat.

12/26/2009 10:49:00 PM

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"Just follow the GRUMPY system: Get drunk. Really, really drunk. Use this drunkenness to obliterate memories, or at least make them seem like they belong to someone else. Masturbate more than seems socially acceptable. Put the pussy down off its pedastal. You are now healed"

my fucking god i think i split my side laughing

12/26/2009 10:54:26 PM

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"Put the pussy down off its pedastal."

12/26/2009 11:06:15 PM

^ i would like to say noone has ever given practical how to/advice about doing that. just the saying over and over again.

12/26/2009 11:09:29 PM

i think it's more of a mindset, its not like you can give step by step directions on it

12/26/2009 11:10:55 PM

God isn't what you're looking for.

12/26/2009 11:34:26 PM

Wow that's almost better than the DENNIS system!

12/26/2009 11:38:46 PM

Haha, we all need to stop posting while intoxicated.

12/27/2009 12:32:53 AM

Hahaha, the DENNIS system is the basis for my creation of the GRUMPY system for getting over women and the EAN (phonetically my name) system for how I got into the booty-call system my roommates admire:

Enter a long-term relationship
Let Alcoholism destroy that relationship
Now you can just bang

There is a poster of this in my house.

12/27/2009 12:40:55 AM

Life is never shit, you should never consider life to be shit. Life is simply what you make of it. Part of living is to paint your self through your conscious interactions in the world, and how you handle consequences. Your self, who you are, is quite malleable and you will change as a function of time and experience. Keep faith in humanity and live everyday to learn.

1/1/2010 2:04:29 AM

Regardless of what rhetoric you've just posted...tonight, today, my life has been painful shit. Shit. Plain and simple.

1/1/2010 3:33:28 AM

What have you experienced to come to this conclusion?

1/1/2010 4:03:11 AM

I guess my own mind is my worst enemy. I think that my meds aren't doing enough. I dunno...I'm so tired of living like this.

1/4/2010 2:01:19 AM

If you ever feel inconsolably depressed, there is one thing you absolutely have to do:

Hit yourself in the testicles as hard as you can.

At the least, it will prevent you from doing anything permanently stupid. At best, it will give you a funny story later about how you whaled on your own nutsack. I am serious. I've used this trick and it has worked.

1/4/2010 2:07:12 AM

At times like this, I work on a record.

One of these times led to two of the best songs I've ever written.

1/4/2010 2:07:56 AM

I've been where you are for the past 4 months... to the day.


I've also written 6 solid songs, and 4 that are incomplete... and i'm working with some guys to start recording it.


Emotionally it's been the worst 4 months of my life.

Creatively it's been the best.

1/4/2010 2:21:56 AM

I know it's a horrible thing to say, and I hope you don't take it poorly...

but I'd rather be bland, not creative...than to feel this way. Maybe I need to start writing again, but I really don't want to feel or rehash these feelings any more.

I'd pay money just to be a joe schmoe some of these days.

1/4/2010 2:36:56 AM

First of all, the joe_schmoe on this website is kind of a dick, and nobody likes him.

Secondly, writing helps. It's helped a lot of people. The key is to not mix that with suicidally excessive alcohol use like Hemingway & pals.

Third of all, you're clearly drunk and all of this conversation will be irrelevant tomorrow when you wake up.

1/4/2010 2:38:56 AM

It's my constructive outlet, so I don't take it poorly at all. Different strokes / folks.

You should write. Sometimes these feelings stay with us so long because we haven't quite coped with them enough... even when it seems all we do is kick up the same dust everyday. If I don't have an outlet, they consume me from the inside-out.

That said, I've never been a bland joe schmoe, if i tried and succeeded, THAT would really kill me.

1/4/2010 2:40:18 AM

^^I wasn't drunk at all...that's the scary part.

1/4/2010 10:05:54 AM

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"Enter a long-term relationship Let Alcoholism destroy that relationship Now you can just bang"

Oh my, I've been doing this for years, and never realized it. Many years. shit!

1/4/2010 10:10:57 AM

so this is all because of a girl?

1/4/2010 1:50:55 PM

9/11 was because of a girl

1/4/2010 1:51:43 PM

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"so this is all because of a girl?"

Somewhat. Not totally. It does have a lot to do with the overwhelming damage control occurring after the breakup. Read my lips... I'm too fuckin' nice and willing to admit to a good part of it being my fault...and I took on too much shit, more than I should have, and more than I can handle easily.

2. I am often driven to succeed at whatever I do. It fucking was a hit that I, yet again, failed to make another relationship work out and make our collective life work smoothly. In reality it was an impossible task with me shouldering much more of the burden than was fair.

So, I think I'm just gonna go back to hanging out and, when I need a sex fix, sportfucking for a while.

Just really down after a bad couple of months...and given a week and a half of off time, too much time to stew in it.

1/4/2010 2:38:42 PM

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"and given a week and a half of off time, too much time to stew in it."

QFT

when i get down, i have to do something to distract me. this has recently ended up with me pissed off and swearing a lot at shit needing contant repair the POS house i bought over the summer. but at least i'm not feeling sorry for myself.

1/4/2010 8:23:23 PM