I love you. And not, not in a friendly way, although I think we're great friends. And not in a misplaced affection, puppy-dog way, although I'm sure that's what you'll call it. I love you. Very, very simple, very truly. You are the-the epitome of everything I have ever looked for in another human being.

And I know that you think of me as just a friend, and crossing that line is-is-is the furthest thing from an option you would ever consider. But I had to say it. I just, I can't take this anymore. I can't stand next to you without wanting to hold you. I can't-I can't look into your eyes without feeling that-that longing you only read about in trashy romance novels. I can't talk to you without wanting to express my love for everything you are.

And I know this will probably queer our friendship - no pun intended - but I had to say it, 'cause I've never felt this way before, and I-I don't care. I like who I am because of it. And if bringing this to light means we can't hang out anymore, then that hurts me. But God, I just, I couldn't allow another day to go by without just getting it out there, regardless of the outcome, which by the look on your face is to be the inevitable shoot-down. And, you know, I'll accept that.

But I know, I know that some part of you is hesitating for a moment, and if there's a moment of hesitation, then that means you feel something too. And all I ask, please, is that you just - you just not dismiss that, and try to dwell in it for just ten seconds. Alyssa, there isn't another soul on this fucking planet who has ever made me half the person I am when I'm with you, and I would risk this friendship for the chance to take it to the next plateau. Because it is there between you and me. You can't deny that.

Even if, you know, even if we never talk again after tonight, please know that I am forever changed because of who you are and what you've meant to me, which - while I do appreciate it - I'd never need a painting of birds bought at a diner to remind me of.

9/22/2009 3:11:36 PM

fingercuffs

9/22/2009 3:12:40 PM

I don't know what you expect to find out there, Jerry, you know what you want better than me. But there's one thing I do know. I know I can stand here watching you destroy everything I've ever wanted in my life, wanting to smash your face with my fists, because you won't make even the slightest effort to offer happiness and still know that I love you. You mean so much to me that I'm willing to take all your abuse and insults and insensitivity because that's what you need to do to prove I'm not going to leave you. I'm sick and tired of running from places and people and relationships. You want me, that fight for me, because I'm sure as hell fighting for you!

9/22/2009 3:12:56 PM

that gave me a headache trying to read

9/22/2009 3:13:02 PM

[Edited on September 22, 2009 at 3:24 PM. Reason : ]

9/22/2009 3:13:41 PM

um

9/22/2009 3:13:56 PM

9/22/2009 3:14:38 PM

i'm not sure, but i think Spontaneous wants my penis--maybe i'm reading too much into it

9/22/2009 3:17:59 PM

is your name Alyssa then?

ok i went back and read it. curiosity killed the cat.

9/22/2009 3:18:59 PM

that's what i call my penis

9/22/2009 3:27:13 PM

O_o

9/22/2009 3:28:05 PM

i read "i love you" and immediately thought this was about ************

9/22/2009 3:31:14 PM

I just watched "Chasing Amy" last night. I didn't like it when I first saw it (circa 2002), but it's a fucking good movie. I don't know if it's because I've since studied film at State or because I've since had relationships, but Kevin Smith's magnum opus is truly a masterpiece and one of the greatest films of the 90's.

9/22/2009 3:36:40 PM

okie dokie

9/22/2009 3:41:04 PM

Quote :

"QUEER OUR FRIENDSHIP"

9/22/2009 5:13:11 PM

the other night i found a letter i wrote one night when piss drunk and sad/angry with a recent ex. well i can only assume really, i don't remember. i think i wrote it so i wouldn't actually call and say any of it. i apparently turn into a huge pussy when drinking.

9/22/2009 7:23:19 PM

I'm sorta surprised nobody thought this was going to be a KG thread. I thought there would be some parody posts.

And I'm really surprised there aren't more "Chasing Amy" references.

9/22/2009 7:30:22 PM

probably the only kevin smith movie i havent seen

9/22/2009 7:55:06 PM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7XfJY5QR3Lc

9/22/2009 10:34:24 PM

i thought this was going to be a fresh prince of bel air thread

9/22/2009 10:37:39 PM

um ok

9/22/2009 10:46:46 PM

i thought this was about that cddweller chick

9/22/2009 10:50:52 PM

they broke up

9/22/2009 10:51:44 PM

go on

9/22/2009 10:52:32 PM

can you mend my shoe, brah?

9/22/2009 10:53:32 PM

WHAT HAPPENS??? DOES BEN AFFLECK GET THE GIRL????

9/22/2009 10:57:01 PM

^ He does, but then he blows it when he finds out about her past sexual history.

9/22/2009 11:22:43 PM

DAMNIT

9/22/2009 11:30:10 PM

^^story of my life

9/23/2009 12:52:29 AM

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"^ He does, but then he blows it when he finds out about her past sexual history."

story of mine lololol.............

9/23/2009 12:54:54 AM